Incomplete

I know whats rational, reasonable, I can't get to rest my feelings still.
May be if she lived my life, she would have lived it well.
I hated him passionately for creating me the way I am.
I dont know when I'll be done. I dont know when I should stop.
I see i've come to numbness
Pardon me if I 've sold my soul to something else. I'm drained of will and strength to choose.
I cant want what you give. I cant not want what I want.
I could be useful if u just consider. if you just saw or cared. if u were ever there and not just stare. I bled but have not fled. I still am.
I know you want nothing to do with me.
I know I walked away
I know I have this hell to cross on my way back.
I dont why I cant move why I fall over and over again